Just a bit of a shock and lots of dates!

I went to see the doctor today and had to go the 12th floor of the UCL building. I was okay until the point we were told to go and wait in the ward. I freaked out a little because all that I faced were loads of people without hair and not looking very well! I then suddenly realised wait that will be me! I just found it a bit of a shock. The whole thing is coming to life now!
I then settled down and realised okay fine I guess I have to do this. They only don't have hair because they are getting better just like I will!

I then met Kerry again and she was so lovely she showed me properly around all the wards and what different rooms do; as some rooms are used for patients who may be really sick who have to be isolated from the rest. It then reassured me a little that I can turn to her whenever I feel a bit uncomfortable.

I then went and saw my doctor again and had to sign some consent forms because I am part of this trial
which is a trial to see if MRI can be used for lymphoma cancers with more outcome then already. I was very happy to take part in this.I hate MRI scans but I knew I should try and do my bit for other people in the future.

I am going in for my PET scan on the 9th May and also having my picc line put in which will stay in my arm throughout treatment. It just means they can take blood whenever they wish to and give the treatment :)

I am due to have a bone marrow biopsy on Monday 13th May which is when I will start my chemotherapy cycle! I am really scared actually just because I know this is all coming to life and I know what can go wrong and what will happen with my hair! I guess I do have another week to cherish my hair :)
I shall have the first 5 days of Chemotherapy. I have to stay in for at least two of those nights just to see how I deal with the chemo and what anti sickness tablets work best!

It is frightening but if you have your family and friends to support you it really makes a difference :) and even my old school teachers have been wishing me well! Always a bonus :)
It is always going to be that initial shock of why me? or this is so scary but then by Christmas I have something to celebrate :)

I am glad I now have a plan of when it all starts! It does take that off your mind :)
Just now waiting for the stage of my cancer!
:)